i dunno y my poly life is just so diff frm others. i feel pathetic. i feel miserable. i feel heartbroken. i dread going to sch. i dread stepping into the class. i wish i dun hav to go sch animore. today's onli e 2nd day of sch. n i'm typing all these stuff now. i hav no frens. no frens. this is the very 1st time i'm feelin so heartbroken. so miserable. so......... "frenless". does the problem lies wit us? or wit em? i dunno. wad i noe is the hope in my heart has break into bits n bits of pieces. i had been lookin forward to make new frens. new REAL frenz. not jus "hi" n "bye" frenz. but u c, they jus hang in grp. cos most of em r frm e same institute. when i was trying so hard to keep up wit em, they treat us as invisible. now i felt like an idiot. and den we were being accused as the "unfriendlys" n "anti-social", jus b'cos we didnt have lunch wit the whole class n jus b'cos we went off suddenly when all of us were hanging in the library. to go into details, we didnt hav lunch wit e whole class becos jiana is meetin us at the other fc. plus they didnt inform us beforehand tt they r having lunch wit e whole class. so whose fault is this? how dare tt basturd call us unfriendly??!!!
as for the library thing. we went off becos after mi trying so hard to keep up wit e gang n tt they jus cant click wit us, we decide to back out. of cos we had to back out. cant u stand urself being "extra" among em?! n we had e authority to back out. issit necessary to join in their gang? no. so he hav no reason to accuse us oso. none at all. asshole. airhead. f*** his butt off. he thinks he's so popular. but the truth is- he's a sucker n a f***er. childish kiddies.
how long can i hold on?!? i had alr broke down. eyes puffy, red nose, my mum asked mi wad happened. i didnt tell her. i dun wan to. but i realli appreciate her concern. dun ask mi y i broke down over this small matter. frenz r impt to mi. tts y.

i'm in love!! heez. but well. sometimes fallin in love might be a bad thing too. lets c...... hm. freshmen orientation started yest n till now, all i can say is---- totally a boredom. man. these lecturers sure noe how to talk. they juz went on n on n on.... often repeatin wad they had just said.... which sounds a total crap to mi. but well.. i noe they meant well. i just cldnt stand e long talk.
guess wad? mi n lissy. same course. same class. wow!!! mayb becos i share e same aggregate wit her tt they sent us into e same class ba. PHEW~! hehe. n den i found out later tt e gals i'd talk to yest r actually twins. no wonder. no wonder they looked so much alike. pretty leh e twins. woo~! we hav local girl band TWINS in my class! haha. erm den we hav lotsa ite students in our course.. which makes us e youngest among e ppl! anw. tml going flagday. super sianz. going tampines summore. so far. haiz.

ugh......................................... today's my bloody thursday. i sliced my finger while drawin a knife out. c properly. is S-L-I-C-E-D. not C-U-T. wa paing weh. i was soooooo terrified man. the wound is deep lo. i tried drownin e wound wit runnin water. but the blood jus kept oozin out. den i used cotton wool to stop the bleedin. e next thing i knew, the cotten wool is "saturated" wit my blood. freak out lo! nearly cried man. i called my mummy for help, den she tell mi to use e so called "blood-stoppin" powder. so finally, the bleedin stop. PHEW~! the sink is filled wit my blood man. yucks. its like a horror movie i saw lo. *shiver*... now.. thinkin back.. e whole scenario was actually quite funni. haha. i was runnin all over my hse.. den i was shoutin n wincin to myself.. e frantic look on my face.. haha. so dramatic.. hope the wound wont suddenly open n starts to bleed again when i head to westmall later.. later it'll be a bloody scence there..

hmm. just finish chattin wit dear prissy. she wanna quit bebe too. so.... its been days le. n my sickness aint cure yet. haha. kept eating lotsa junk food. dun care la. anw, aint going to camp le. got disgusted by a few of the seniors there. i was actually a lil disappointed by the ppl i saw. dunno y. they'll soon be my classmates. i was wonderin over n over again tt whether i cld get along wit em. they looked so............... eh-hem. not gonna relate it here. dun feel like spellin the words out.

priss n i went to bugis today.. actually wan go swimmin de. but she lives at east, i live at west. near town area oso dun hav public swimmin pool. so we went to catch a movie instead. we planned to watch the house of wax de lo. den i didnt bring ic, so cannot watch. sai. didnt i look older den 16? hai. so drop all the plans, walk around bugis lo. so mani things happened in Bebe after i left. n i found out tt i made the right decision to leave Bebe. phew~! heng lo. hmm.. den priss pull mi over to take neoprint. hai. waste $ again. den summore the photos not nice. plus the machine sux. oh ya. when we r browsin at the accessories stall at parco bugis, we saw tis cute guy! realli. den priss went to take no. frm him. omg. if mi, i wouldnt dare to do tis kinda thing lo! i was like, dun even dare to look straight into his eyes. den he's like so pai se when priss ask for his no. haha. adorable. ................................ do i sound like a lecher??

erm. my parents quarell. again. tis time i totally agree tt it's my mum's fault. wad kind of temple is tt, to hav my mum willingly to stay there frm afternoon 1 something to 11.15pm?! she even lied to mi, tt she's going to the other temple, where she is a member there. i went to that place b4. once the seats inside r occupied, they close all the windows n doors. n it's like a dark small rm. so creepy. i dunno how the monks there brainwash my uncles. they were neglecting their jobs even more after they come in contact wit these things. the jobs they r holdin is our family business. n jus bcos of em, the business is failin. ass. if 1 day, my grandpa's business ever fail, i'll make em pay for it. n if 1 day, my family r torn apart, i'll make sure tt they'll regret it. especially those damn monks. dunno whether they r real ones or fakes ones. if i found out tt they r fake ones, i'll call e police man. n hav some spankin on their fat ass....

hmm. was realli bored at hm.. suddenly feel like going to beach. everyday stare at tis com n handphone.. sianz.. oh ya.. speaking of handphone.. i bought a new 1!!! is nokia 3230.. so called e latest design.. i had to pay half of the $.. not bad le la. er.. got nothing interestin to sae.. to mich: its just shoppin onli.. dun hav to add entry ma. i lazy to type it down oso. oh ya. nowadays i saw lotsa ah ma at my hse downstairs gamble.. shall i call e police?? lolz. 'm not tt busybody la. siao. but those ah ma damn chor lor. they were squattin at the seats there.. smokin n talkin loudly.. weird de lo!! got seats dun sit.. rather squat.. so ugly.. like the "old" type of ah lian.. haha.

today's my last day at bebe. hope to end the day happily. but well. bad luck for mi lo. around evening, i met these 2 indian bitches in my shop. they were browsing in bebe. seeing em holdin full of clothes, i help em n placed e clothes in e fitting rm. n den they continue browsin n scannin for clothes they like. at 1st when they came into e shop, it's not full of ppl. just a few customers come n go. they were browsin soooo long. more than 30 min, i dunno. cos they browse frm no ppl till the shop was crowded. damn em lo! i mean, there were so mani ppl Q'ing for fitting rm, they still slowly browse around e shop, havent got the intention to try the clothes yet. u noe wad. there's more than 20 pieces of clothes inside e fitting rm lo!! for each person 20 pieces of clothes leh, not 2 ppl leh. n there's a lot of ppl Q'ing outside. i got no choice but to let e other customers try their clothes 1st, cos those bitches still at there browse. n i'm so busy, customers wan these n tt, i cant just serve those bitches rite. summore e shop onli got 2 ppl helpin. mi n priss. so i didnt notice tt e bitches' fitting rm r occupied by e other customers, one n another. when finally those bitches wanna try their clothes le, they found out tt e clothes tt they chose went missin. den they blamed mi. fuck em off lo. 1st, there r so mani ppl in e shop. 2nd, i HAD TO serve em. 3rd, sum1 at there seng lang not helpin us to serve. 4th, u think i got eyes at e back of my head AH?! u cant ask mi to guard at the 2 fittin rm there to prevent ani1 usin the rm rite?! brainless de leh, bitch. inconsiderate bitch. cant they c tt there a lotsa ppl in the shop waitin to try their clothes?!?! blind ah?! still at there complain. if i knew these earlier i wldnt have help em man. shitty em. let em drown in their stack of clothes. i feel like diggin their eyes out man. den shuff e eyeballs in their ass. no. shld hav cut their eyeballs into slices den make em swallow it. ............ argh. disgusting. lolz.

oh ya. nicolaus xie's mum came into our shop! wow!!! but she didnt buy anithing la. she come here browse a while onli. den i saw sum1 taking photos wit her.. shit lo. i regret le. shld hav take priss's cam n take a pic wit her!!! hai. forget it.

kns.. bad luck nowadays. i'm gonna be mad if this continues. yest took a cab hm after my work. damn. waited for an hr for A CAB. f***. i was so damn tired lo! i havent eat my dinner summore. den e weather so darn hot. tt lady beside mi oso buay tahan. scratch tt. all e ppl waiting for e cab there oso buay tahan. den she asked mi wanna share cab wit her not. of cos i said "yes"! she live at jurong i live at bt batok. shun bian ma. aniwae, when e cab rch my hse le, i asked e taxi driver to wait for a while for my sis cos i didnt bring enough $. its less than a min lo! den e driver at there scold. na bei. halo?!?! i've waited for a cab for an hr lo! wait for less than 1 min will die issit?!? siao leh. the fat ass uncle. jerk. scum. basturd. ass hole. air head. idiot.

den today i went swimmin wit jiani. actually i wanna go bt batok swimmin pool de. but jiani complain too far. plus she dun like swimming at public swimmin pool. so we went to eugene's condo de swimmin pool. n my sixth sense tell mi tt something will happen. but i dun care lo. jus swim aniwae. den after tt a bitch/slut/si char bor complain to e security n we kanna caught. f*** her off man. jus b'cos of her we hav to settle lotsa pro n drag down so mani ppl. sorrie to michelle eugene cindy n cindy's fren. really. curse her--- bankrupt... cant even afford a 3-rm falt.. become a begger for the rest of her life... hmm. actually i wan say kanna rape n commit suicide de. but well, tts enough le.

aniwae. went shopping on tue with my colleague .. spend lotsa money. AGAIN. shitty lo. hai.

woke up early today.. damn. s'ppose to hav a nice long sleep on my off day, but i had to go to sp lo. pui. went there.. weather was hotty.. n saw my classmates. handsomes..... a few. b-e-a-utiful..... quite a lot. not so lot la but at least more than handsomes lo. they'll be my classmates.. i wonder how am i feeling now. btw, i saw lotsa kids in my course. mi angelis n yun looked somehow older than em lo. dunno y. especially the guys. all small size de. wad siax?? aniwae, join e camp.. hope it's gonna be fun. oh ya. saw joo san there. haha. she was like kinda shocked when she saw mi man. lolz. she screamed worz. sia si ren. den she asked mi to join her camp but i dun wan.. haha.. even use michelle to threaten mi.. i not scared.. lolz. aniwae. tired le. now typing all these down in my half-slp condition. eyes wan close le lo. sianz. tml still hav ta work. pui.

today's my off day, n i've been workin for Bebe for more than a week. after the next 2 weeks, i quit, n will be searching jobs wit cindy. hopefully, we can work together. its been so long ever since we (our gang, qi jie mei, zhiyi, shell n cindy) hang out together. .sch term starts at the end of may. i realli hope tt all of us cld hang out (sort of like 5n1 gurls gathering) just b4 the sch term starts, n continue doing this after it starts.

worked for BeBe for more than a wk, the customers r so "generous". haha. they left things behind like wallet, dig camera, n handphone in the shop plenty of times. n it's always mi who found all these stuff. n hand them back to owners. wow. how i wish to keep those things to myself man. lolz. most of e customers r foreigners, n they r so "open". they did not bothered to close the curtain when they r changin (ok, its half-close) . its like free show lidat. lolz. n there's tis customer, i will nv forget, cos it's so gross. i bet she's a china lady.. n she's wearing turtle-neck top (i dunno wadz tt call la) aniwae it's sleeveless. den she lifted her armpit n i saw.. i dunno how to sae.. a whole lot of armpit hair?? n it's like, the hair is thick thick de.. YuCks!!! so disgusting lo! i bet she shaved it, cos the hairs is like, all the same length.. short short de.. but a lot.. CANT SHE SHAVE IT AGAIN?!?! >=P~~. i wan puke le......