i dunno y my poly life is just so diff frm others. i feel pathetic. i feel miserable. i feel heartbroken. i dread going to sch. i dread stepping into the class. i wish i dun hav to go sch animore. today's onli e 2nd day of sch. n i'm typing all these stuff now. i hav no frens. no frens. this is the very 1st time i'm feelin so heartbroken. so miserable. so......... "frenless". does the problem lies wit us? or wit em? i dunno. wad i noe is the hope in my heart has break into bits n bits of pieces. i had been lookin forward to make new frens. new REAL frenz. not jus "hi" n "bye" frenz. but u c, they jus hang in grp. cos most of em r frm e same institute. when i was trying so hard to keep up wit em, they treat us as invisible. now i felt like an idiot. and den we were being accused as the "unfriendlys" n "anti-social", jus b'cos we didnt have lunch wit the whole class n jus b'cos we went off suddenly when all of us were hanging in the library. to go into details, we didnt hav lunch wit e whole class becos jiana is meetin us at the other fc. plus they didnt inform us beforehand tt they r having lunch wit e whole class. so whose fault is this? how dare tt basturd call us unfriendly??!!!
as for the library thing. we went off becos after mi trying so hard to keep up wit e gang n tt they jus cant click wit us, we decide to back out. of cos we had to back out. cant u stand urself being "extra" among em?! n we had e authority to back out. issit necessary to join in their gang? no. so he hav no reason to accuse us oso. none at all. asshole. airhead. f*** his butt off. he thinks he's so popular. but the truth is- he's a sucker n a f***er. childish kiddies.
how long can i hold on?!? i had alr broke down. eyes puffy, red nose, my mum asked mi wad happened. i didnt tell her. i dun wan to. but i realli appreciate her concern. dun ask mi y i broke down over this small matter. frenz r impt to mi. tts y.
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