BEATEN

pack and spill...

to pack my emotions and feelings when i go to work.
to be extra cautious not to let it spill.
to spill when i rched hm.

putting up a front..
to deceive and hypnotize myself tt it's not affecting me,
to look as tho i'm alright.

one day.. you'll get so sick and tired of it.. you'll jus suffer a breakdown.

like today.

ppl claimed tt it's a moodswing, wadeva, bcos it's not. it's fucking not. after hearing an accumulation of some things, after accumulating wad mentioned above, it's alr hard for me enough not to lose control. even tho wad i did was merely a change of attitude. even tho i did nearly lose control in there. wadz worse is i regret the moment i did it, and i hated myself for doing it instantly, but anw.. wads done cannot be undone.

den i realized the real reason y i regret doing it, and i promised myself tt i will nv let it affect me anymore. bcos.. it's no longer my business. if i were to do it again, i'll only let the ppl ard me suffer.. in this case.. i apologized to those who got affected, i'm sorry.

contradicting as it is, i will still continue with the pretendance.

and lastly, control my emotions.

hectic week.

had a fabulous dinner with my colleagues on tues at Modesto!! as usual, meizhen n i wld order seafood spag and 1 pizza. modesto seafood spag.. always the recommended dish to my frens! yum.. *smack lips. camwhore again as always.. esp when so many of us girls gathered ard. too mani pics to put up; i shall jus upload only the funni ones in the next entry.

gotten our stomach even more bloated enuff as we headed to hagen daaz for choc fondue.. i did mentioned b4 tt i'm not fond of hagen daaz fondue as the choc is always so diluted. decided to giv a try again and to our disappointment, it was not only diluted.. the choc was oso not warm enuff! yicks man.. felt tt i have wasted my poor money!! mei zhen complained to the staff there, and she brought our choc away to promise to have it warm enuff, only to found out tt it was even more diluted when e pot of choc was returned back to us. fed up.

attended the so-


called Orientation at True Yoga with lis on thurs; according to wad the person told me over the phone that we will be taken to a tour ard the fitness centre, and could actually start our 14 days free-trial lessons straight away. sounds nice la. but when we rch there, this stupid marketing consultant of theirs came to us and talk straight to the membership point. after so much of the persuading for our reluctance to join such an expensive membership for a yr which costs us $260+, we managed to get ourselves half of the figure and thus, we signed on to the 1 yr membership on the spot.

i think it's quite worth it.. you cld actually choose to go for any classes any time any day u wan, in fact, u cld even attend the classes everyday, with a fix price of $130+ per mth. provided tt you r diligent and discipline enuff, otherwise i think the membership is a waste. N they do have a lot of lessons.. from dance classes to yoga classes, to combat classes and even therapy classes. wooooooooo. i think i wld go for the therapy classes 1 day when i get really tired from work heh heh. er hopefully i wont fall asleep there?

so yep. classes will start soon after i received my membership!! i'm so looking forward!

friday, half day off to Home for the sick Aged. was rather bored there.. i tut mayb there'd be some interaction with the ah peks or ah mas?? but no leh, jus distributing food to em, den watch the performance by some of our staff.. we even went up to the stage at the ending to sing "Tian Mi Mi" (ah doi..........) as a grp. i think i wldnt go the next time n wld probably prefer to join the voluntary work to visit and help out the needys at their own house. probably do some house chores or clean up their hse for them.. den providing em food n all these. tt sounds so much meaningful lo. i'm not good at communicating with the old ppl oso!

went to mei zhen's hse after which, where it is not far away frm the old folks hm. i wanted so much to see her doggie, Furbi!!! extremely adorable!

presenting wad mei zhen called him.. Prince Furbi!!!!

ah yes furbi looked up to me hohoho..

in case u cldnt see, i'm actually massagin furbi's head..

haha.. u can see i looked realli happie in e pics..
i wanted to own a dog too.. sigh but somehow it seems impossible..?

dogs are men's best fren!

PAIN PAIN (jus a random entry)

my wisdom tooth is killing me man..

cannot smile properly. cannot eat properly.. well tt leads to cannot bite properly.
i even got headaches occasionally, as to wad lis said, wisdom tooth can even result to headaches.
OUCH.

oh btw, can wisdom tooth also resulted in hormones changes? LOL. bcos a lot of pimples sprouted on my face.. and my face condition is getting worse!! FFFF!

OH I NOE. it muz be the side effects of alcohol. F again!! i needed it so much!!

Happy Halloween

plans from clubbing at zouk, to pubbing, to chilling, to mahjong at ann's hse!

i think clubbing n pubbing seems impossible tt night, esp with the free entries at clubs! we promised tt next yr we'll dress up for halloween nxt yr heh. hopefully can make it come true den! sounds fun!

ann cooked spag as dinner for us. YUM~ love the corn chicken soup to the garlic bread to her spag!! played mahjong and we had chips dipped with the salsa sauce (gosh.. it's so nice.. except tt it's a lil spicy for me) after tt and the ben & jerry ice cream!!! thanks ann for e dinner! everything was simply delicious tt nite =D

and not to mention SMELLY. shawn dropped 3 or 4 silent bombs in front of us. his farts are DARN SMELLY CAN!!!!! one is fart king, another one is burp queen.. so compatible huh....


no clubbing or pubbing, but i still had fun. oh btw, lis n ann: thanks ar, now i know how i looked like... SOBS~