Home.

i'm home tt early.. n sleep this early!

toda i left the office on the spot at 6pm, went back home for dinner, and suddenly i felt so odd, so out of place haha.... well.. to be exact it's been ages since i had dinner at home and most imptly to be eating with my family (without my dad, as usual) together at one table. sigh... 'm wondering how does my mum feel... to have had her dinner alone....?

mayb i shld plan a holiday trip again.. but this time to be with my family. hmm mayb a langkawi or redang trip?? HEH.

anw.. i'm Enlightened lol. all thanks to alphonsus! hmm he doesnt know my blog but still, i wanna say it out loud here:

1st: i knw wad i want - to live a life where i wld not be tied down by such kinda matter. though it's hard, but i know i'm trying my very best to do it.

2nd: i know i'm strong and optimistic, and i will continue this way. it's jus another obstacle to go thru, another lesson learnt.

3rd: one of the lesson learnt - I HAVE TO BE CLEAR-MINDED! dun let my feelings over-ride my mind man!!!

4th: it's hard it's hard... and it hurts.. but if u tell urself tt u can do it, u CAN!!! (quote frm beng hahaha.. thnks dude!)

etc etc etc........ a lot of things i have to keep in mind..
but this is the way.. to survive..

oh ya.. n i'm still trying to make my life back to a normal one..
i pray....................