The choice is mine

if i were to be given 2 choices at this moment:

1. to stay at home slacking, reading books n magazines, watching tv, do some spa, relaxing.. etc etc
2. to hang out with frens.. chit-chatting, catching some movies, trying out diff food n delicacies

i'd choose 2, even tho i had to fork out quite amount of my $$ doing it.

i hate to be stuck at home, thinking n doing things which i wasnt sppose to be thinking n doing.


went out on fri with sueann, sijia, and sophia.

S hilei, S ueann, S i jia and S ophia.

All S's!!! haha. hmm nothing much.. jus went to minds cafe and played with their games. felt like clubbing at tt moment.. but i'm still a bit sick and the other gals had their energy depleted. so we jus went back hm after tt..


Saturday, initial plan was to stroll along east coast park with my colleagues, with the sun and sea breeze and all, but the plan was called off as one of them was feeling unwell. well, so much for thinking tt it's a great opportunity for me to exercise the whole day under the sun and circulate my blood stream. i want to exercise ahh!!!!!! i wanna sweat!!!!!

so in the end, i woke up as late as 2pm on sat, and spend the rest of my night with ting at holland v.

ting- when can we get drunk together???? hahahahaha.. =P

us at essential o'brien. =)

end my post with my pics.. haha..
narcissist!

Home.

i'm home tt early.. n sleep this early!

toda i left the office on the spot at 6pm, went back home for dinner, and suddenly i felt so odd, so out of place haha.... well.. to be exact it's been ages since i had dinner at home and most imptly to be eating with my family (without my dad, as usual) together at one table. sigh... 'm wondering how does my mum feel... to have had her dinner alone....?

mayb i shld plan a holiday trip again.. but this time to be with my family. hmm mayb a langkawi or redang trip?? HEH.

anw.. i'm Enlightened lol. all thanks to alphonsus! hmm he doesnt know my blog but still, i wanna say it out loud here:

1st: i knw wad i want - to live a life where i wld not be tied down by such kinda matter. though it's hard, but i know i'm trying my very best to do it.

2nd: i know i'm strong and optimistic, and i will continue this way. it's jus another obstacle to go thru, another lesson learnt.

3rd: one of the lesson learnt - I HAVE TO BE CLEAR-MINDED! dun let my feelings over-ride my mind man!!!

4th: it's hard it's hard... and it hurts.. but if u tell urself tt u can do it, u CAN!!! (quote frm beng hahaha.. thnks dude!)

etc etc etc........ a lot of things i have to keep in mind..
but this is the way.. to survive..

oh ya.. n i'm still trying to make my life back to a normal one..
i pray....................

if u had a bad day, bad weekend..

parties, clubbing, pubbing.... anyone???


jus try'na to keep myself busy and occupied, even tho i'm so tired, emotionally n physically.
wish this hadnt been the way to start my week, wish everything was back in order - my life as it should be.

dun worry ppl, i've stopped crying. well, tho still sobbing a lil.. but with my frens ard supporting me.. i'm as comforted and happy. a BIG thanks to u ppl.. esp ni.. u always standby me whenever i nd it.



.............. if u r happy as it is now, i'll be happy for u..


now i'm serious.. parties, clubbing, pubbing.... anyone???

souless

dun ignite the hope in me, and extinguish it jus like tt.
2nd time tt happens on me, how am i able to pick myself up again?
u muz be feeling nothing but guilty, while i'm gushing out my tears with the agonizing pain in my heart, my mind, my whole body.
i'm such a weakling, i guess, n an idiot, for falling so fast n deep into it, and den hurting myself the next minute.
Bruises all over, with no one to tend my injuries..

been crying for the past half an hr..


n i'm wondered y am i in this shit of mess
y this shit of mess always find their way to me



but now i'm worrying another issue..
"y issit tt i'm feeling so insecured.
how do i get myself out of it.
help.. someone pull me out.."