the meaning love..

it was thru 20 years of life i lead, tt all of sudden, i found tt i never love before.
to define better, they are all crushes. crushes this, crushes that. somehow i nv managed to control my feelings, and that i don't understand at all. i don't understand my feelings. i nv know and distinguish whether it was real or was it just a moment's of folly or illusion. when i feel, i hardly seem to know i'm feeling genuinely or not. when i like, it simply bcos of the attraction that tempted me, but soon, i just got tired of it.

so confused.

what is love all about? it's like, sacrificing for your other half, and like them whoever they are?


how pathetic i am, to know and feel nothing about love even at this age. how foolish i were, to think that i know and understands my feelings, which in fact i don't. how awful i were, to reject all those ppl who once after me, where they are the ones that truly know their feelings.



watashi wa baka