him n him n him

i'm so deeply in love with him. was working for past 2 days, and though i tried as hard as i could, my mind is full of him. 'm so afraid, for so mani months, this is the situation i dread to c myself in. ive alr prepared to face the worst situation, but i wondered how i can take it. i wish time could turn back, so that i wldnt fall onto the same guy again.

love

one sentence-

let nature takes its course........

tired

ve tired. tired tired tired. cant cope at all..... so mani projects n reports to rush for.. i dun even noe how to do my maths test today.... grades are dropping..... die liao!!!!

should i quit my job? its like, i dun have enough time for myself, my homework and studies. having not enough slp this whole week. realli ve tired. i need HELP!

L.S.

.............................................................................................. kns. kept fallin sick nowadays. dunno y. karma i guess. started to l.s. from yest till now. n my weight goes frm 45kg to 41kg!!!!! wa lau. 'm going nuts!!!! no appetite to eat summore.

THE 2 DAYS BEFORE NATIONAL DAY

ah haha. which is my b'dae. ermm... we went to marina for steamboat..went up a bus 400A which is onli for ppl going to carnival.. n the bloody ppl there said this bus cld go to marina bay itself. den after tt to realise tt the bus onli stop at the carnival there. sort of had conflict wit the officials there. -_-.

aniwae. we had steamboat there.. so mani food.. ugh.. cannot finish.. cannot finish nvm... they even made mi drank the super-duperly gross drink they mixed. it's RAW egg + my red bean ice-cream + sueann's soup wit her ice + beer + ... i think tt's all la. it's dIGuSTiNG man. I DRANK TT!!

after tt we went to esplanade to cut my b'dae cake....... hmm. they sang the song so loud.. so pai se.. n tt cake was nice!!!! overall is lidat lo. haha.

thanks again to all ppl who wished mi happi b'dae. n a big THANKS to sueann, jiana, angelis, michelle, bee lye, shawn n zhiyi.. thanks!

they dote n 'm doted

yay!! today is my b'dae!! hehehe.. woke up fairly early this mornin.. went to market wit mama.. gd gal rite? after that we went to jurong west (she brought mi back to holly hell memories.. the place near my tuition centre!!) n bought 2 hamsters!! EEEEEK!!! so cute! gal n boy... den my mother said next time we can sell their babies to others to make $$. gd idea. ve cheap man. jus $20 onli. i decided to call em hampti, dampti...................................... from the original name of humpty-dumpty.......................................... errs. a bit strange tho'. aniwae. i felt so loved. i love my family!!!!

am anxious for tonight's celebration at marina..... hope it goes smoothly..!

finally i made up my mind to decide that i onli wanna be frenz wit him. yes. jus frenz onli. i wldnt think of him as my secret admirer or wad... i jus hope to be frenz wit him!!

suddenly. i'm ve scared of the guys in my buddy class. those malay guys. they're funni.. true. but they were being mean to a gurl in our class by sayin out loud tt she bcac.. i mean, these kinda things can keep it to urself 1 rite?? suddenly i felt so self conscious. 'm afraid tt the next target is mi.. u'll nv know wad will happen rite??